always about him...i komplen here, i komplen there..but juz now i realized he xpernah komplen about me. i mgaku sgt2 syg dia, my 1st luv pun i tak cinta mati sampai gni. he is everything to me. but then he lied to me, i cried so many time, after that i put maself in d 'safe place'...i told maself not to luv him badly, i stopped maself to fall in luv with him, wateva he gave me once, i gve him 100 more times...if i gaduh skit ngan dia, i packed my things and wanna get out from this house,then he hugged me, asked me not leave him. after so many times, i dunno why it is so hard to forgive and forget him...the scar that he gave me in d past year can't heal as easy as it shows...it hurts me so...TO BE HONEST, i wish i never meet him.
Tapi, Tuhan tidak buta...DIA maha melihat dan maha mengetahui...kerana i sedar, hadir dirinya atas hikmah...kalo tidak i akan masih terkial2 cari cinta...hidup mo enjoy ja, masi lagi jadi 'party gurl'...(sekarang pun still party but got limit..hihihi)
sometimes i looked at his face and i saw 'alex' yang i cinta dulu, i syukur dia masih milik i...tapi bila dia da buat perangai...huhh..sumpah mati i sanggup tinggalkan dia...but now whatever happen to us i know that is plan by GOD. i mengaku i tak bahagia seperti dulu, but i'm not put the blame on him, it just me who still can't FORGIVE him for what he had done to me...i need time...and sayang, whenever u read this, i want u to know, u are the best thing ever happen in my life and no matter how many scar u will give me in the future, i'll keep holding on until the fate asks me to let u go.
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